Phantom Dragon

 

"Just as our free will clashes with necessity in the outside world, So it also finds its limits outside 
the field of consciousness in the subjective inner world where it comes into conflict with facts of the self"
                                                                        -Carl Jung

                                             

                                                     To a child reality is what we see

                                                     To a child the 'I'is an object

                                                        an entity within a group,  

                                              a mask of pride reveling in the prospect.

                            little do we realize the shadows barred by mystique and conscience.

                                         shadows that surround the dragon sealing it within

                                                               clearly out of view

                                       images of a childhood unknown that hounded 

                                           let everything die down behind the mask

                                       Marred by the resilience of elders that care too much.

                                                             Sealed,

                                                             Scathed,

                                                             Suffered, 

                                                        and simply agitated.

                                      One shadow at a time turned into memories of past

                                the dragon's view flourished and the child within grew among many fates.

                                    Memories that turned embers to flames and flames to the fire 

                                   transformed shadows of the dragon into the phantom of free will.

                                        And as these flames blew so did the child grow

                                       

                                                The 'I' was not an object anymore 

                                                The 'I' knew more to not belong to what has been foretold

                                                The 'I' grew out of the mask it adorned.

                                        The reality of freedom was not just a  concept no more

                                            It resonates, personifies, and dissipates  itself 

                                                  to the equilibrium of ego found.

                    

                                                         A statutory war within,

                                                  one to be as an enigma within the crowd,

                                          and to break the mask, only crown that makes it proud.

                                          

                                                   Revealing the phantom dragon 

                                                     A force of nature if you will 

                                               Out of the clutches of the fate presumed.

                                          Letting the fire engulf self and stage art that befits 

                                                  

    

"Once the ego has achieved sufficient autonomy and a measure of control of consciousness, the feeling of personal freedom becomes a strong feature of subjective reality. throughout childhood and adolescence, the range of personal freedom is tested, challenged, and expanded. 
Typically a young person lives with an illusion of much greater self-control and free will than is psychologically true. All limitations on freedom seem to be imposed from the outside, from society and external regulations and there is little awareness of How ego is just as much controlled from within. Closer reflection reveals that one is as enslaved to one's own character structure and inner demons as to the external authority. Often this is not realized until the second half of life when there is typically a dawning awareness that one is one's own worst enemy, Harshestcritic and severest taskmaster. Fate is spun from within as well as dictated from without" 
                                           - From "Map of the soul: Persona" by Murray Stein.  

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